Just sit around, posting....
Going on 8 months without an income and it's beginning to pinch.
Been looking at Ebay to see if I could sell things like books, pictures, dishes, movies, CDs, whatever.
School starts in a couple weeks but the kids have said they don't want any new school clothes. Maybe they are just being frugal. It's hard to tell.
I keep applying for jobs and keep getting rejected. It's all I can do.
When I got let go from my former job, I got a blessing so I could cope. The blessing instructed me to keep positive, that I would be able to sleep and keep good health, and that the Lord knew all about my situation and was aware of my needs. That was January. Since then, I have been doing my best to put my faith where my mouth is.
So, I turn on the computer, apply for jobs, turn off the computer, and try not to think about it. I am sleeping. I am being faithful. I am handling the rejection well. I guess the difficulty lies in my being human. I can't see the future and therefore I still allow fear to creep in and threaten me. The funny thing is, that almost as soon as I begin to feel the panic of being backed into a corner, and just when I begin to see us packing up to live in our car, the reminder kicks in that I am doing my best and the Lord really is in charge. I take a huge breath and move on with my day.
No, I'm not perfect at it. However, it is a new technique and it is working! I've even visualized myself in a large room with the Savior standing at one end, waiting for me to approach. I walk slowly toward him, with a significant amount of baggage, trying to haul my load with some sort of dignity. When I reach the Savior he smiles. I look him in the eyes, I lower my bags, I nod my head and I back away for a few paces and then I turn and walk away out of the room.
Works for me.
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